Mikael and I have always thought it would be great if I could stay at home and raise our kids, especially with the crazy world we live in today. Both of our moms stayed home with us and we loved that. And for the most part I have been so excited about staying home. Although we did like the daycare Mason attended from November - April, it was obviously not the same as me taking care of him. And we absolutely loved having Jennifer and Carrie Morrow watch him this summer, but Jennifer had to go back to her teaching job and Carrie has another family now. So on August 6th I had a conversation with my boss about leaving Frito Lay to be a SAHM. I was extremly nervous for the meeting! Like more nervous than I would have been when interviewing for jobs in college. But the meeting went really well. My boss thought I was going to tell her that I was pregnant, so she was really surprised and caught off gaurd when I told her my thoughts. My actual proposal was that I wanted to work part time from home. And then I gave a few different options...such as work part time from the office, work for a few more months until they found a replacement, or that they could hire me for temporary part time work whenever they needed help. I knew that part time probably wasn't an option, and it definetly is not the Frito Lay "Culture" to work part time. So it was a long shot.....but I figured after working here for 6 years, I might as well ask. After a week or so, my boss told me that unfortunately, part time was not an option. My last day will be September 18th.
The evening after my meeting with my boss, I drove home and started crying. Honestly when I got home I think Mikael thought I had been fired or something...hahaha. I guess I was just overcome with emotions. I felt nervous, scared, happy, sad, etc. I began to second guess my decision over the next few days. I think it was because I have worked at Frito for 6 years and had a successful career and I was nervous to give that up. And even though I love Mason and know I will love being home with him, I have never not worked. My parents raised us to have jobs to pay for the necessary things in life. I honestly enjoy contributing to a team at work and financially at home. I know that I can always go back to work, if the staying at home thing doesn't work out and/or when our kids are in school.
Since a few weeks have passed I defintly feel better about my decision. I know I will love being home with Mason everyday and that it is the most important job. I can't wait to be there for the "Firsts" instead of hearing about it from Daycare or Babysitters. And i am sure it will be the hardest job that I have ever had.
So here is to looking back and reading this post a few months from now and getting a really good laugh! Being a mom has always been my top priority and now I will be able to do it 100% of the time!
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